a device for the soul

(Here is the primary, uneditted version to this poem.  I am still working on it and will add the editted version, once it’s complete, so there is a comparison for view and comment.) 

crawl out from your bones,
pour me into your heart
and bleed me through your body.
filling every bruise, weep from every wound
sustain you
making your every pulse my own

dance around your head,
draw me into your lungs
and let me be your oxygen.
becoming every sigh, form into every word
saturate you
making your every breath my own

storming inside your skull,
flash me through your brain
and send me down your spine.
riding every signal, spark from every nerve
electrify you
making your every thought my own

spinning beneath your feet,
wander me hither and yon
and leave me with your remains.
devouring every ounce, dissolve into every speck
absorb you
making your every atom my own

passing across your sky,
disperse me into your grave
and suffuse me into your soul.
revealing every sight, shine from every direction
illuminate you
making your every truth my own

Once in a while,
we can laugh
without fear
or second-guessing;
feel fine and alive.

Once in a while,
we can be
ourselves.

Once in a while,
we can do
the right thing,
say the right words;
heal a broken heart.

Once in a while,
we can forget
ourselves.

Once in a while,
we can kiss
while savoring it,
return it in kind;
love without constraint.

Once in a while,
we can share
ourselves.

Once in a while,
we can pray
and have it answered,
but not for us;
remember someone else.

Once in a while,
we can get over
ourselves.

Once in a while,
we can say
thank-you
and mean it;
for no other reason.

Once in a while,
we can forgive
ourselves.

Once in a while.

I love you
without knowing
you break my heart
sticky, sweet and red
as a candied-apple
dripping hot cinammon
drink in deep
breath out winter mint
kissing me icy blue
and blazing white
irradiates my mind alive
with lime-green neon dreams
dying black with gangrene
melting in your mouth
buttery smooth
as jaundiced yellow
around a purple bruise
bite into it
hard with hunger
right to the core
drain it clear
as spring water
leave refreshed
with knowing
you love me