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past-tense existence

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through these years of knowing, i’ve known
that my entire life i’ve been dying
that my entire life i’ve been denying
everything i know may not be worth knowing

existing despite its futility, i’ve offended life by living
i’ve offended everyone by feeling, but i feel
that i haven’t felt enough. which is real
and which is just myself trying to ignore that

i’m still struggling to discern what is true, i see
that all of this is an impossible dream
in a world where nothing is what it seems,
but, then again, it might just be.

letting go is such a hard thing to hold onto
and i’m having trouble giving in too, giving into
giving up my selfishness of wanting to believe
in the possibility of just being me

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Written by 2ndhandsoul

December 17, 2007 at 4:13 am

Posted in poetry

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